stressed...
I was excited at being accepted into the degree course but now I'm stressing out trying to decide which bank loan to take... It's very scary because I need to know exactly what I'm getting myself into. Reading through the details and repayment terms are just driving me insane... And the thought of having to spend the next couple of years repaying my loans is also making me wonder why I applied for this course in the first place.
But it is really an interest and a passion for me.. I've always wanted to take this course and now I'm just one step away from it.. I also know that it's time for me to move on if I want to get somewhere.
Maybe I should pray fervently and hope for some kind donor who would want to sponsor me. Wishful thinking? Possibly.. But one can always hope, can't they?
And I have up till next Saturday to get everything done and that's why I'm stressed...
And its going to be a jam packed week again... Strange, how come I was always complaining that I had nothing to do then?
I was excited at being accepted into the degree course but now I'm stressing out trying to decide which bank loan to take... It's very scary because I need to know exactly what I'm getting myself into. Reading through the details and repayment terms are just driving me insane... And the thought of having to spend the next couple of years repaying my loans is also making me wonder why I applied for this course in the first place.
But it is really an interest and a passion for me.. I've always wanted to take this course and now I'm just one step away from it.. I also know that it's time for me to move on if I want to get somewhere.
Maybe I should pray fervently and hope for some kind donor who would want to sponsor me. Wishful thinking? Possibly.. But one can always hope, can't they?
And I have up till next Saturday to get everything done and that's why I'm stressed...
And its going to be a jam packed week again... Strange, how come I was always complaining that I had nothing to do then?
posted by muse at 3:13 AM
2 Comments:
Hey you,
I'm glad that you got into the course that you wanted to. Yes, the loans are insane and it is enough to drive anyone mad. Thing is, is going mad over the loan going to be worth your dream?
Going to Australia is gonna be tough on not just myself, but my brother and especially my mum. Not to mention Suz as well. I've waited 7 1/2 years for this. Only because of my dad's passing on am I able to do this. I will give it my best. I will do it with no regrets.
I suppose God's perfect timing is never more perfect than now. I am ashamed to say that I have not been seeking his will, but rather going at my own dreams head on, and on my own strength. It is only by His grace and mercy that things have been going fine for me.
I just hope to be able to buck up and turn my life around when I am there.
You are my oldest friend. Literally. 23 1/2 years is not something to be coughed at. And I thank God for you in my life. A short stint Down Under is not going to change anything.
Choose your path carefully. Prov 3:5-6. I don't need to spell it out. You should know it better than I do. Take care.
Love,
Me.
Hey... Yes, I feel it's worth all the insanity it's putting me through...
And your encouragement is just what I need... Same goes for you... I sincerely hope this stint Down Under will be just what you need...
We have both chosen our paths and God will take us through them.. Remember: He never gives us more than we can handle... And its all in His time that things happen...
God has put us in each other's lives for a reason and I'm thankful for the many memories that we share... be they good or not so good.. :)
Since we've both taken the first step to our future... Let's not falter and regret.. We'll move ahead... I wish you all the best...
love
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