today.
It has finally happened... The 5 hour flight time between us has now officially taken effect. He's there while I'm here. It's tough, really tough..
The last one week was spent meeting friends and spending time together.. It was a bittersweet week as we crammed all the free time we had and tried to make up for the 4 months apart.. But nothing could stop the flow of emotions last night, the night before he leaves.. Though we've talked about everything possible before, we've tried to be strong for each other and not show how painful it really was. But last night was it.. No false front, no strong demeanor... Just honest feelings and fears... It was so painful to talk about it but yet, seeing how each of us was not alone, made things a little more bearable..
Baby, thank you for letting me know how you truly felt about it, that I was not alone in my misery.. We made a commitment to each other and a promise to Him. He has made it possible for us to be together after going through so much crap, He will make it possible for us to work this out.. Praying together made me feel closer to you and I'm sure you felt it too...
Standing at the departure hall with him, his family and our friends seemed rather surreal.. The drama of excessive baggage and repacking kinda made things a little more light hearted.. But nothing could soften the pain of watching him walk through the departure gates and past the immigration counter.. I promised I wouldn't cry but that was just not possible..
On this note, I owe big thanks to Jo & Sam and ger & Fred.. Thanks for making it to the airport.. Your presence was really a source of support for me, esp. ger. I wouldn't have been able to take it had you not been there..
As I type, it helps to be able to blog this all down... Perhaps it takes a little of the pain away.. Whatever it is, I'm looking forward to June when I fly up to meet him.. 4 months... and definately counting down... Nothing is going to deter me from going over...
It has finally happened... The 5 hour flight time between us has now officially taken effect. He's there while I'm here. It's tough, really tough..
The last one week was spent meeting friends and spending time together.. It was a bittersweet week as we crammed all the free time we had and tried to make up for the 4 months apart.. But nothing could stop the flow of emotions last night, the night before he leaves.. Though we've talked about everything possible before, we've tried to be strong for each other and not show how painful it really was. But last night was it.. No false front, no strong demeanor... Just honest feelings and fears... It was so painful to talk about it but yet, seeing how each of us was not alone, made things a little more bearable..
Baby, thank you for letting me know how you truly felt about it, that I was not alone in my misery.. We made a commitment to each other and a promise to Him. He has made it possible for us to be together after going through so much crap, He will make it possible for us to work this out.. Praying together made me feel closer to you and I'm sure you felt it too...
Standing at the departure hall with him, his family and our friends seemed rather surreal.. The drama of excessive baggage and repacking kinda made things a little more light hearted.. But nothing could soften the pain of watching him walk through the departure gates and past the immigration counter.. I promised I wouldn't cry but that was just not possible..
On this note, I owe big thanks to Jo & Sam and ger & Fred.. Thanks for making it to the airport.. Your presence was really a source of support for me, esp. ger. I wouldn't have been able to take it had you not been there..
As I type, it helps to be able to blog this all down... Perhaps it takes a little of the pain away.. Whatever it is, I'm looking forward to June when I fly up to meet him.. 4 months... and definately counting down... Nothing is going to deter me from going over...
posted by muse at 9:40 PM
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