same.

I wonder when I will wake up and find that things have changed.. For the better. How long can I keep this up? I don't even know why I'm blogging tonight. My mind is actually a blank because my heart is working over time. I knew it wouldn't be easy and sometimes I wonder what gave me the determination to choose this path.

But through it all, I know I will find my silver lining one day... Maybe it's already there, shining ever so slightly in a cloudy sky.. Maybe its just waiting for the winds to blow the darks cloud away and bring back the sun so I can see the lining clearer. Maybe. Maybe not.

I know I'm not making sense. I'm sorry..