long day....

I'm exhausted. It's been a long day, brought my kids out to the zoo. It was a good trip but too little time, didn't get to see much of the zoo. The day has been crazy... Big rush in the morning to settle the excursion, then when I came back, I didn't even get a chance to eat lunch and I had to rush to take another class. Then had to rush off to send daddy to the airport. Only at about 5 plus did I get a chance to really breathe.. phew...

For some reason, I get mixed feelings each time I go to the airport. Maybe it's just the surroundings that give me that kind of feeling. I feel as though it's a different realm altogether from the real world. There in the airport, people are going through the departure gates, others coming out the arrival gates. Families, friends, relatives all there to send or pick someone. Different emotions running through.. It's just hustle and bustle, kind of makes you want to go on a holiday too.

I felt liberated when I was at the airport 3 weeks ago to fly to Chiangmai. It was a feeling of sadness and excitement. I was apprehensive at leaving because I couldn't bear to leave him. Yeah, maybe I'm just being stupid. After all, I was only going away for a couple of days. But still....
Called him at the airport to tell him I was going to board the plane soon, my emotions just overcame me and I just cried. I couldn't take it....

I was supposed to go to JB yesterday with a friend to choose her wedding gown but I didn't eventually. To be honest, I don't think I could have stood the thought of sitting at the bridal shop watching her try gown after gown.. Don't get me wrong, I'm happy for her.. I just won't be able to take the whole thing, not with the way things are going now...

I love him very much but it's just killing me to go through everyday like this. Sometimes I wish I can work myself to sheer exhaustion everyday so I won't even have the energy to dwell on anything else except my bed.