lost...


watching lost tonight brought some thoughts to mind.... i think it was the scene where the make shift raft sailed that did it.. the irony of the whole situation was that the raft was to bring the survivors a glimmer of hope, in the form of a rescue team.. yet amidst the atmosphere of euphoria and hope, there were also feelings of loss and tearful goodbyes exchanged...when sawyer turned back to take a last look at the beach that was his home since the crash, it was evident that he was fighting to control his emotions beneath that calm composure...

however, it was the scene between the korean couple that really struck me... here was a typical traditional Asian man... brought up in a strict and autocratic environment... probably been drilled from young, never to show his true emotions in public... and yet, there he was... just completely broke down... all because of a woman...that just did it for me... for a man to break down like that and show his true emotions is, to me, a real man... not the me-tarzan-u-jane or the i-am-the-man-so-you-listen-to-me kind of man... some woman are attracted to men who are all macho and well... just 100% man.... but not me...
in fact, i loathe such men... anyway, i shall not go into a full scale rant against such imbeciles...

i have no idea what im typing or why im even typing all these.... maybe coz he's not online tonight... feels kinda lonely...