i asked for a sign...

it's incredible.. it never ceases to amaze how God allows things to happen... whether it was because silly goose could tell how down i was or that God planned for tonight's conversation to take place, it doesnt matter...

what matters is that we did have this conversation.. one thing he said really just touched me... he said he wants to be sure that he is able to provide for a family before he takes a step further.. it just hit me... really... i asked him if i still meant something to him but he didnt answer me... then he said that.. i was almost speechless...

to think that i mattered this much to him.... for him to have said something like that really showed how much he cares... im sorry if i doubted you... but like i said tonight... i have chosen to love you and i won't give up... because i have faith in us... likewise for you...

and now its time for me to go to bed because it's back to work... sigh...