all i want for christmas...

This title has a significance... Just 2 christmases ago, while he was still working at Wheelock, he did a poster with this heading. And he asked me, "What is the first thing that comes to mind when you see this heading?" I said, "The song 'All I want for Christmas is my two front teeth." He was surprised because the song he had in mind was "All I want for Christmas is you." And everyone he asked said the former and he was wondering if he was the only weird one.

And this isn't the first time he's thought of something different from most people. That's just him, he's different and unique in his own way. That's what I like most about him. Ironically, it is also the one thing that drives me nuts when we argue because he's just not like other guys. But with all this happening, I have began to appreciate this uniqueness. I know he loves me in his own special way and I should do likewise...

Besides the material wish list I have for Christmas, what I really want for Christmas this year is him. Just to have him back... He's the one I want to spend my life with, the only one I'll love... This may sound mushy but it is heartfelt sentiments.
It's amazing to realise that 3 months ago, we had that dreadful conversation. Giving us a 3 month break.. How will things end up? I honestly don't know.. I try to be optimistic but it is difficult not to think about the other possibility.. sigh...