sense of humor.
Last I checked, I'm still in the same nightmare... Only 2 people hold the answers to what has happened. One's so high up even the airplanes can't reach Him, the other so far away that only by airplane can I get to him. But right now, both aren't talking much. Interesting sense of humor, the both of you have.
I'm been going in circles trying to find some kind of ground.. I want to move on, away from this nightmare. But He's holding me back by asking me to wait. No other answers, just wait.
Wait. For what? Is there any point in me doing so? Right now, all the doors are closed. The horrible experience of walking through a dark corridor with not even a sliver of light is what I'm going through now. I don't like the dark... But I'm being made to go through it anyway...
I wanted to be patient. But He doesn't hand out patience pills on a platter for you. He throws countless challenges at you so that you LEARN to be patient. And that's exactly what He's doing right now. I just want to know if there's any point in me waiting specifically...
Last I checked, I'm still in the same nightmare... Only 2 people hold the answers to what has happened. One's so high up even the airplanes can't reach Him, the other so far away that only by airplane can I get to him. But right now, both aren't talking much. Interesting sense of humor, the both of you have.
I'm been going in circles trying to find some kind of ground.. I want to move on, away from this nightmare. But He's holding me back by asking me to wait. No other answers, just wait.
Wait. For what? Is there any point in me doing so? Right now, all the doors are closed. The horrible experience of walking through a dark corridor with not even a sliver of light is what I'm going through now. I don't like the dark... But I'm being made to go through it anyway...
I wanted to be patient. But He doesn't hand out patience pills on a platter for you. He throws countless challenges at you so that you LEARN to be patient. And that's exactly what He's doing right now. I just want to know if there's any point in me waiting specifically...
posted by muse at 7:00 PM
2 Comments:
Many a times it is the journey that we walk through which matters and in your case, it is the dark corridor that greets you. If you don't walk, you will never know what is at the end of the corridor.
We all hope that there is light and hope at the end of the tunnel, but I believe it is the walking through which matters to Him. The walking shows obedience, reliance and trust.
You have only walking through, which is going forward that is the most feasible option for you. Walking backwards is not beneficial. Staying put is also not gonna be your best choice.
It is the journey which matters.
14 years after my own dark corridor which I walked through, I am glad He still brought us together. As I sat in the Jeff Chang concert, holding a hand, I am so glad it is his hand I am holding. But ... but ... I had to confess that my faithlessness and disappointment caused me to walk in the wilderness for 2 years. 2 wasted years ... yet He gave me a chance to have those years restored.
Take heart. 14 years later, you can also tell the victory which is gained in this journey through the dark corridor. Whether it is him you are holding or not, it only matters if he is the best him for you.
Take heart. Don't be sad anymore, ya?
A guo4 lu4 ren2,
Jesselyn
thank you...
I'm tired, not physically but emotionally. Its a struggle everyday but I can only commit to Him. Right now, I'm slowly walking down that corridor because there will always be that light waiting at the end of it.
I know that and that's the only thing that's keeping me going. To reach that light.
But thank you for the support. To know that there are people who care...
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