endurance.

It's been a long semester and I really am looking forward to Friday. Not just because I'm finally going to see you, after 4 months.. But also because I seriously need a break, away from this battle. Yes, the environment has eased up some and I'm beginning to see cooperation and teamwork. But I'm still treading on thin ice everyday. It's getting tiresome and to be brutally honest, my patience is wearing really thin.

God has been teaching me bit by bit that patience comes with trials and testings. I accept that but I sometimes wish for a respite.. I sometimes feel as though I'm hitting a brick wall, as far as she is concerned. Every initiative and directive I come up with or give, is instantly met with criticisms first. Compliance sometimes comes, rather grudgingly, I must add. The cherry on the top of the damn cake came when she went as far as to 'threaten' me.

If there's anything I absolutely hate, is to be threatened. In her case, she went way too far. But, I don't wish to make a decision right now. I need to get away and revaluate the situation and weigh out my pros and cons before I decide. So yes... I am really really looking forward to getting away.. And the best part is, I get to spend it with you *smiles*

I owe it to the Big Guy Up There for having been my Comforter and Provider. He has shown me that in Him, all things are possible, if only I would trust Him to. I don't have to walk this path alone.. He's by my side each step of the way, guiding me.. And He will continue to do so until I meet Him again.

"Father, thank you for the encounter with you. For having forced me into that corner where I had to finally, after much struggle, turn back to You. I haven't forgotten my promise.. And You have been faithful. Thank you."