trapped.

I can only do so much with my capabilities.
I can only say that much to please everyone.
I can only go that far to mediate.
But no matter how far I go, its never enough.

I have tried to adapt to each of you.
I have done what I thought was best.
I have listened and changed.
But yet, it's still not enough.

My capabilities are limited.
My patience and tolerance are limited.
My pride and ego can only take that much.
This time round, I've had enough.




Saying I'm tired is an understatement. I feel as though I'm fighting a losing battle everyday. I go into the battlefield already knowing who my enemies are. But each day of battle yields different results. Some days, they win. Other days, I win. Everyday is a new challenge and the enemies change hands.

Why does it have to be this way? Why can't we just be friends and stop picking on every damn thing? I've had enough of people being snide and jack-assing IN MY FACE. Because of where I'm positioned, I'm inevitably drawn into the crossfire. I'm putting out fires almost everyday.

I need a break. I need to get away from all this negative aura and find a zen spot where I can refocus. I think we all need that. This term has been a long drawn one and I am so looking forward to the end of it.

Please God, I need the strength to survive each day and I need to wisdom to handle every situation that drops on my lap.. Please Lord, just let me survive the next 2 1/2 weeks...

15 days and counting.