it's been a bizzare weekend..

This weekend has been an eventful one. It started with my laptop dying on me, which completely freaked me out. Just when the deadline for my work submission is looming.. We had a little disagreement over this which resulted in me going in circles trying to find someone to fix my laptop. In the end, it took him just under an hour to get it going again...

He probably already intented to fix it for me but I guess he wanted me to learn not to be so dependent on him and take things for granted.. Nevertheless, I appreciated the time he put in... Gave me an excuse to see him too... :) In fact, we had a pretty good time last night, it was like back to old times where we talked and laughed. Not that we don't talk now but the laughing bit seems to have died down. Seeing him laugh yesterday just did it for me... Made me realised even more how much I missed him..

Tomorrow is an important day for him... I hope things go well for him... Maybe once that's settled, he'll be ready to talk... I'll be honest... I'm scared... Of what? Losing him, losing everything...