fear...

I want to call you but I don't know what to expect... Truth is, I'm afraid... I just want to talk to you, to hear your voice but I don't want you to think I'm checking up on you... Worse, for you to feel that you have to 'report' to me... It was never meant to be like that.. We update each other out of respect, and maybe out of habit... After all, we've been doing that for the past 3 years..

I've lost count of the times I've picked up the phone, dialled your number, only to close my handphone in the end..

I'm sorry...