closure...

We met yesterday... Although I was the one who initiated the meeting, I found myself tongue-tied when we actually met. I had so many things to say but I didn't know what I should say or shouldn't say...

I thought I was ok, but when I saw him, all the emotions and feelings just swarmed in... But on most counts, the meeting last night was good. At least I got the answers I wanted, not necessarily what I wanted to hear but at least something definate.
For some reason, listening to his side of the story and what he had to say, I felt that he still cares... Though not enough to make the effort to maintain our relationship.

I can't even begin to explain how I felt last night... A slight glimmer of hope? Disappointment? I guess I could say I was utterly devastated... No, I'm not exaggerating...

I was very touched though, to hear that his parents spoke up for me.. In some sense.. Both his parents, especially his mum, have been nothing but nice to me. They welcomed me and made me feel very much at home. His mum always made it a point to talk to me or give me something to bring home.

Well, he actually said that I may find another guy who complements me... Right now, I can't even imagine loving another guy the way I loved him. How do you bring yourself to trust another person when you gave your all into the relationship, only to have your partner say, "I'm sorry, it's not working."
Imagine how I felt when he said, "I guess I can only say sorry."

Sorry for what? For breaking my trust? For making me love him so much? I really don't know...

The only thing I can do now is wish him all the best... And to support him silently... And hopefully, one day, I'll get over him...