new month... new perspective...
Yes, I still miss him... Yes, I still love him... And yes, it still hurts... But yes, life does go on...
Received a rather unpleasant phonecall yesterday and called him to clarify... Turns out, it didn't matter it was true or not... Fact is, I trust him and it really doesn't matter what others say...
If I know him well enough, I know he still cares.. But being the person he is, priorities have changed... And I'm not being noble... I don't want to be... But I do want him to be happy doing what he is doing and if by doing so, he can make it far... So be it... Maybe it sounds stupid to some, but sometimes, when you're emotionally involved, you tend to do extreme stuff...
But right now, all I want is for him to make it in what he is doing... On my part, I have made some plans and I'm really hoping they come through... (and no, its not a typo)
Went for a wedding dinner on Sunday night and boy was it beyond my expectations... It was held in the garden of a bungalow chalet, under 3 large white canopy tentages, with a jazz band and a sea view... It was simply beautiful... Something I would have done if it were my wedding dinner... To top it off, the groom pulled a surprise item and sang a song he wrote himself.. With the help of a musically inclined friend of course.. It was like a scene out of a movie... Of course, the company of friends that were there really added to the ambience.. It was truly enjoyable...
The wedding ceremony itself, though simple, was very meaningful... I was very priviledged to have been asked to sing at the wedding but the part that really got me was when the couple walked down the aisle, out of the church... The joy on both their faces was simply indescibable... Both are personal friends and seeing them so happy, was truly special.. I wish the both of them eternal happiness and many good years ahead...
Being the church co-ordinator for their wedding kept me busy but it was especially tough because of what has happened... I couldn't help but think of my own wedding... Not that I'm dying to get married but sometimes, you can't help but think... But above all, I was really glad to be a part of it...
Anyway, JTHJ, you asked for a happy entry... Happy enough?? :) But honestly, thank you... For being a true friend...
Yes, I still miss him... Yes, I still love him... And yes, it still hurts... But yes, life does go on...
Received a rather unpleasant phonecall yesterday and called him to clarify... Turns out, it didn't matter it was true or not... Fact is, I trust him and it really doesn't matter what others say...
If I know him well enough, I know he still cares.. But being the person he is, priorities have changed... And I'm not being noble... I don't want to be... But I do want him to be happy doing what he is doing and if by doing so, he can make it far... So be it... Maybe it sounds stupid to some, but sometimes, when you're emotionally involved, you tend to do extreme stuff...
But right now, all I want is for him to make it in what he is doing... On my part, I have made some plans and I'm really hoping they come through... (and no, its not a typo)
Went for a wedding dinner on Sunday night and boy was it beyond my expectations... It was held in the garden of a bungalow chalet, under 3 large white canopy tentages, with a jazz band and a sea view... It was simply beautiful... Something I would have done if it were my wedding dinner... To top it off, the groom pulled a surprise item and sang a song he wrote himself.. With the help of a musically inclined friend of course.. It was like a scene out of a movie... Of course, the company of friends that were there really added to the ambience.. It was truly enjoyable...
The wedding ceremony itself, though simple, was very meaningful... I was very priviledged to have been asked to sing at the wedding but the part that really got me was when the couple walked down the aisle, out of the church... The joy on both their faces was simply indescibable... Both are personal friends and seeing them so happy, was truly special.. I wish the both of them eternal happiness and many good years ahead...
Being the church co-ordinator for their wedding kept me busy but it was especially tough because of what has happened... I couldn't help but think of my own wedding... Not that I'm dying to get married but sometimes, you can't help but think... But above all, I was really glad to be a part of it...
Anyway, JTHJ, you asked for a happy entry... Happy enough?? :) But honestly, thank you... For being a true friend...
posted by muse at 12:40 AM
1 Comments:
I felt the same way at the wedding. After all, I too had planned my own wedding and all.
Even where to live, The kids, their names, their schools, and the rest of it.
I didn't see all this coming for me. No. I thought my life would have a happily ever after kinda thing. But I realised somewhere along the way that there will be unexpected events. The beginning of this year was rough. It was crazy. And all I had was a bunch of people telling me about my new responsibilities. That, which I figured out, didn't need any more emphasis than it did.
But life goes on. The ups and downs, lefts and rights, ins and outs, they are all part of a plan to make us who we are. It moulds us, shapes us, and ultimately, makes us realise we are not in charge of our lives, much as we, or even I very much want to be.
Take care. One day, God willing, we will see where all this leads us, and I really hope that, for myself, it leads me back to Him, from whom I have strayed galaxies away.
Love,
Me
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