gloomy weather...

That kinda sums up my feelings these two days... What am I supposed to be feeling? I'm really tired... I keep myself so busy and try so hard not to think of him... But its hard when everything around me reminds me of him...

Every now and then, I find myself thinking of him.. What he's doing.. If he's ok..

It's just crazy...

Anyway.... Today, I did something I've been wanting to do for some time.. Procrastinated almost 2 years... But I finally did it today... And in less than 2 months, I'll know if it works out or not...

Strangely enough, the option of going overseas to work came up yesterday.. Not to some obscure part of the earth but to the States... It is quite exciting and I may look into that option... Maybe its a chance to run away from all this... But nevertheless, an exciting career progression...

I've avoided talking about this to anyone... Other than my oldest friend and ms leow, no one else knows... I guess its easier not to talk about it.. It really is too painful and I don't want to explain to people...