I tried so hard to move on, to forget it. I thought I did and for a period of time, I was convinced that I have. But what I found out a couple of nights back brought reality crashing down again... Why did I have to hear all that? Why couldn't I just let it be?

What I felt then was a whole myraid of feelings... You're like a ghost from the past that keeps coming back to haunt me... Reminding me of your existence, even though you're gone...
You're the reason why I've become what I am now... I've been accused of being guarded.. There's no denying that I am.. But what else can I do?

For the first time in half a year or more, I cried myself to sleep... Something I vowed never to do again..

Now, I don't know what to feel anymore.. What to think.. What to do... What to want...

Anyway, it's Daddy's birthday today... Happy Birthday Daddy, I love you...