black.

That's the colour of my face and my mood right now. It's been an extremely lousy day. I didn't come into this job to teach. I took up this job offer because I was offered a chance at a promotion and pay raise, not to mention the job prospects.

But now, because of you, I have to put everything else on hold and take over your duties. I have tons of things to think about and sort out. But nothing can be done until the classes for the day are over. And by the time I'm done, I'm so exhausted mentally and physically that I really don't have the energy for the paperwork.

And all you can say is sorry? It's only 4pm and I'm totally wiped out. I've been coming to work 7 days a week for the last 2 weeks. My timetable has been turned upside down. And now, because I drive, I've become the driver.

Yet, I refuse to concede defeat. I'm going to survive the next 2 months and prove that it was worth hiring me. I just need to keep reminding myself that till the end of the term.

To you, it's been a long week for us. I've tried my best to be understanding about the last week. What I wanted was just an hour of your time. Can't you understand that it's not me trying to be demanding? It's you who can't make up your mind about things thats really putting a strain on us..

2 1/2 months and counting down...