friendship blues...

I'm a person who treasures friendships alot and because I'm also a person who is by nature, very guarded, I tend to have few friends I choose to confide in..

niceguy always say I'm too emotional and I do agree.. Yet, its hard to be otherwise when it comes to people I care about..

I thank God for the friends I have.. Ms Sharon, lene, Aud, Xav, Pheb, Jess and Jenn... These ladies are the people I know I can count on for sound advice and comfort.

Over the years, I have made many friends.. Some I wish I never had, others, acquaintances.. Yet fewer, those I consider true friends... I do not expect my friends to be there 24/7, although I would like to be..

I try to be a good friend and with the select few, I don't mince my words. I say what's on my mind and am extremely opiniated. To those who have been able to accept me for who I am, truly.. I thank you...

Reason for this blog? A phone conversation I had with Xav yesterday. About a friend I thought I had. A friend who really went all out to show me she cared and a friend I thought I had for life... She's someone who is extremely selfless and thoughtful.. It's always others before self and it was precisely because of that, we became good friends.. We have so much in common, food, shopping, love for books etc..

Yet, just like that, I lost this friend.. No, she didn't die.. But it's as though she's just vanished.. So call, no sms... Just silence... All my attempts at communication proved futile...

What has caused the breakdown in our friendship? Did I say something wrong? Did I do something wrong? What went wrong?

Until I get some answers, this will forever be etched in my mind..