no right to anything...

-now listening to All I Ask Of You from the Phantom of the Opera-

All I ask? Not much, really... Question is, what is asked of me? I thought I could protect myself this time round by being guarded. It has worked so far. But just when I was starting to experience a paradigm shift, just as I was beginning to change my stance, this had to happen.

This feeling of deja vu is simply too overwhelming to accept. Assurance was all I wanted, security all I seeked, comfort all I wanted to feel and I did. But somewhere, somehow, something changed. I've questioned myself countless times. I doubted myself too many times to remember. I'm not going to beat myself up for not trying hard enough. People learn from their mistakes, I did, or at least I tried to.

I have reached my limit. I'm done trying. I give up. It's your call now.

I want to run away, as far as possible from this place.

I want to end all this. Or find an answer.