i did it...

Yes, I have... After 4 1/2 years, I finally did what I should have done last year. It was with mixed feelings that I gave the letter. But it had to be done. I've lost the motivation to teach, lost the desire to want to make that difference and lost the hope of achieving something.
I love my kids, I truly do.. And I know they love me too.. I will miss them, very much.. I'll miss the "Good morning, Ms Shareen!!", the hugs and kisses, the little treats they absolutely have to bring to school to share with me, the ones that come running to me to sob their eyes out and even the ones who refuse to eat their greens. I'll miss the familiar environment and the noise that I've gotten used to after being here so long..

I'll miss the colleagues who have become my friends... The ones I'd call to bitch about work and other stuff.. The ones who have stood by me and gave me advice. The colleagues who have welcomed me with open arms and treated me like family. I'll miss the long hours put in for concert, campover, exhibition, carnival and so many other company events. I'll miss the makan gatherings we've had...

I wish I didn't have to make this decision... I wish things had been different... This place has become my home, a place I've grown so comfortable in, a place I felt I was welcomed... It's so hard to leave but I know I have to..

I'm going to a place where I might be seen as a threat.. I'm scared but I know I have what it takes to prove it to them...

In one month, everything will change..