i wana scream!!!!!!!!!!

Someone tell me what to do... I'm trying my damnest to maintain a certain level of sanity. But being cooped up at home because I'm sick is not doing any good to my mental state.

I've always prided myself on being mentally and emotionally strong. Able to withstand trials and emerge from failures a better and stronger person. I'd like to think I still am.

But. I am not Xena, a warrior princess, with a heart of steel. I am very much human, with very real emotions. Capable of experiencing extremes in emotions. Yes, I've had my happy moments and I'll always remember and cherish them. I've also had my desolate moments where I've felt utterly lost and helpless. I promised never to cry over another. Thus far, I have kept my promise. Yet, human as I am, imperfect as I am, I'm reaching that breaking point. I'm this close to hitting that point.

I don't trust easily but I was ready to trust you. I had skewed conceptions about stuff, I admit. But you changed my perception about things.

Tell me I'm over reacting. Tell me I imagined it all. Or maybe, tell me it didnt happen.