the abyss...

I don't know why I typed such a deep title... Somehow, it just impressed upon me to type that. To some extent, I feel like I've fallen into some sort of an abyss.. Where I feel like I'm still falling, waiting to hit the bottom so I decide whether to stay down or find my way up and out. Yet at the same time, there is this strange calmness that overcomes me while I'm falling. Having said that, I'd like to state for a fact that I really like the show, The Abyss. I've been looking out for it but have yet to come across it in the stores. Anyone who knows where I can purchase a copy?
An abyss is supposedly to denote something negative, yet at the same time, my connotation of it is the opposite. The law of semantics.: Phrases can denote similiar meanings but they also connote something quite different.

And then there is this whole area of relationships. Whether it is associative or paradigmatic relationships. It again depends on an individual's take on issues. At this point in time, I'd prefer paradigmatic relationships because there is this whole element of ambiguity that I'm starting to like. And I like experiencing what I term as 'paradigm shifts'. Its this whole idea of experiencing different things and making sense of non-sense. Am I making any sense here?

Anyway, I'm still in the midst of trying to establish some sort of a routine. There have been so many changes to my schedule that I'm finding it hard to cope sometimes. I have to admit, uni isn't a bed of roses where you can hope to smoke your way through and it isn't as easy as people would like you to believe. So, for the first time in my life, I am actually studying. No, not having-lecture-notes-sprawled-all-over-the-table-and-you-trying-to-look-intellectual kinda studying. I'm talking about actually digesting-my notes-and-trying-to-make-sense-of-them kinda studying.

So, with 5 days to assignment due date... I am experiencing an odd mix of calmness and mild hysteria. See the contradiction and the contrast? So forgive me if I go cranky on any of you because I am trying to handle the stress as best as I can. :) But on a lighter note, I am still enjoying lectures and tutorials so... I'll survive!